My wife left me because I can’t stop watching porn

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It was the early hours of the morning, and I was still in bed, mindlessly scrolling through my Facebook feed when I saw it. A video of my wife with another man. I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. I felt like I had been punched in the gut. I felt sick to my stomach. I wanted to vomit. I wanted to die.

My wife had left me because I couldn’t stop watching porn.

I was addicted to pornography. I had been for years. It started innocently enough. I was a teenager and curious about sex. I had heard about pornography and wanted to see what all the fuss was about. So, I went to the local video store and rented a porn movie.

I was immediately hooked. I watched that movie over and over again. I began renting more and more movies. I even started buying them. I had hundreds of porn movies stored in my bedroom closet.

My addiction to pornography took over my life. I became obsessed with it. I thought about it all the time. I would spend hours watching it. I would masturbate to it several times a day.

My wife knew about my addiction. She had caught me watching porn on more than one occasion. She had begged me to stop. She had even threatened to leave me if I didn’t. But I couldn’t stop. I was addicted.

And now she had left me.

I was devastated. I loved my wife. I couldn’t imagine my life without her. I was lost without her.

I tried to go on with my life, but I was a mess. I couldn’t concentrate at work. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t sleep. I was a wreck.

I knew I needed help. I went to see a therapist. I told him everything. I told him about my addiction and how it had taken over my life. I told him about my wife leaving me.

The therapist told me that I needed to give up pornography. He said it was destroying my life. He said I needed to get rid of all my porn movies and never watch them again.

I knew he was right. I knew I needed to stop. But I just couldn’t do it. I was addicted.

I tried to go without pornography for a few days. But I would end up giving in and watching it again. I just couldn’t help myself.

I was at my wit’s end. I didn’t know what to do. I was about to lose my job, my home, and my life. I was a mess.

And then I found out about an outpatient treatment program for pornography addiction. I decided to give it a try.

The program was hard. It wasn’t easy to give up something that I had been addicted to for so long. But I did it. I completed the program and I haven’t watched pornography since.

It’s been almost two years since my wife left me. I’m doing better now. I’m not perfect, but I’m working on it. I’m going to therapy and I’m taking medication for my addiction.

I’m slowly putting my life back together. And I’m hoping that someday my wife will forgive me and take me back.

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